Led Astray*

I Have Been Diverted. Diverted from my natural way of living. Diverted from my primary purpose - whatever that might be. I manipulate myself by believing that I don't believe in manipulation. But I DO believe in manipulation. I try to live my life without knowing that Heaven's Gated. But it is. I've regretfully believed my own lies. I keep manipulating my emotions So smiles appear true, But Honesty is Commonly forgot about. So what should I do? Lie about my honesty? Or Be honest about my Lies? Im trying to be patient, finding my way back crying I'm lying to be honest, In all honesty, I'm lying Trying to find my way back To recognize Detected lies Said as arrows shot from Hell "There is one who speaks like the piercings of a sword, But the tongue of the wise promotes health." (Proverbs 12:18 NKJV)