Let's pretend

Damn I miss my best friend damn I know I should have let it go but 15 years how do you erase that maybe I am to sentimental maybe your the only one that knows the real me an love me an all my flaw maybe it's because I could be myself with you no body else with you you would listen to my fears you really fucking care how do I tell my heart to stop loving you when your apart of my soul I love that you let down your walk I love your smile and your laugh I love the way you think I love the fact that you could be 100 with me so where did we lose that my felling never change they just grow more I mature more I understood you more where did your felling go that it was so easy for you to walk away they say let it go if it come back that's how you know but lighting doesn't strike twice whatever that supposed to mean but let just make believe like there was no we let's just pretend like we never exist I put my soul to rest with it but there ain't no peace an I just want my best friend back the one I talk all night just to have you tell me how you relate and make my fell I not alone in this world that their some one just like me that share my pain and gets my way of thinking an I wish I could tell him but would it even matter does it even matter if he don't care he won't be er care did he ever care but of course so let pretty d like we don't exist like we never happened like it never was and I hope he doing fine an life is treating him fine fuck that I take it back I hope he dead inside I hope he try to live but there no felling in his heart no matter how hard he try I hope when he touch another there we'll never be another cause there only me and I hope he fell suck to the heart I hope he pretend he alright I hope he don't have no one to talk to so let's just play make believe how about it you an I like we didn't exist like you never held me like we never kiss like I didn't give you the deepest part of me I want you to have to smile to the world like your alright when your broken inside I hope your filled with anguish I hope you fell like me inside I hope you fell like you list your whole life yet you have the world in the plan of your hand I hope you got all you desired I hope your kids live you so deeply you have that joy but I hope that when it comes to her let's just play pretend like your heart and soul and body don't belong to me like mine belong to you let's I hope you do right but but I hope that I never ever leave your inside no matter who she is what she does how much she give I hope it can't amount to you an I want you to fell my pain share my anguish fell ever bet of it even if she has your kid your never be able to shake my or replace you love your baby but you'll wish that it was me who share that smile your wish it was mine I hope you can never have a place for her in your heart in that place that I rest my head an my hand cause that's where I stand because this is what you did to me this is where you put me you left me you should have never came back if you were going to just walk away with out a trace cause damn I just miss my best friend