A Letter To Heaven (Expidited Shipping)

Dear bro, i never thought you would have to go So I decided to write you a poem so you could know i havent cried yet But it's funny, every time i see your picture i guess that i havent tried yet But that was just for now, last year i shed alot of tears I hadnt been to a funeral in almost 7 years Its been a couple nights, that i had those dreams That you were napping, later on youre right infront of me You know your lost inspired me to make a change And now i live for you doing bigger and better things Im pretty sure you seen how it was hard for me to have to come to class and not to see you sitting in your seat Its been a year since you flow away from all of us and now i feel like theres nobody out here that i can trust And now on purpose i take the long way home to past your street memorial, see all the love youre shown and i look back in time, to see how much ive grown, to see how much ive change, how much of life ive blown and i regret my choices, and most of my decision i need them to forget and take me for my better vision and theres so much of life that you are really missing youre in a better place, there aint no better vision. now let me upate you on whats happend to me been through alot of struggle and found alot of peace and yeah i switched my schools, and kept my grades in tace kept my hopes up and knocked my problems back And now enough 'bout me, its time to talk 'bout you. How does it feel up there and did you see our daddy too? See all the friends we've lost, and news for me wish you could write me back i'll be the best that i could be. No i dont hang outside, im still scared of the dark im not ashamed to say your death has put fear in my heart. 'This hurt alot of people, and it porbably hurt you too i walked up to your casket, i sworn it wasnt you of course i know your name, but you looked like no other your face was all distorted, looked nothing like my bother and when i walked away, i had to take it in that i will never get to see my brothers face again i tried to hide the pain, the tears i couldnt hide you'll never know how deep the pain has struck my heart inside that boy will never know the pain he put my family through and all the girls that cried that really used to go on you used to be sensitive, i learned to be more tougher his last 3 hours on earth, I had to see him suffer...... (and I paid for expidited shipping)