Letter I Wrote to Myself

You are toxic

You are poison to the people around you

You are manipulative and twisted and sinister

You do not feel

You love with your mind, not your heart

You are cold and calculating,

              and nothing could ever warm your heart

You find beauty in pain

You find light in suffering

When you say “I love you”,

              you are empty

When you say “I’m sorry”,

              it sounds like “I don’t care”

You want emotion detachment

You do not want to be hugged or cradled

You do not want love or affection

You want someone just as cold as you are

Maybe someone colder, so you don’t feel like the villain again

You are toxic, and I should remove you from my life

                                But I can’t

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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