A Letter I'll Never Send pt.2

hey my love,

it sure has been i while since i've been able to think about us without completely loosing my shit. i honestly don't know what made me fall for you. 

you were different in one of the best kinds of ways. and knowing your never going to this is meant for you or even read it it's like whats the point of

writing to you. well if you felt what we used to have and for some odd reason make it as far to read this whole letter you'll know it was for you. it

took me a couple weeks to realize what i was wishing for between us would never beome reality. with

my luck things happend and sure enough look where we are now. who knows whenever i'll get the chance to see your face again, but i do have a 

feeling things will be different between us. my respect and love for your remains unaltered but the hopes i had were crushed. i

still want to ask you some questions though, so if you know this is to you answer the questions i'll never ask.

or maybe i won't have to ask. i'm still confused as to what went on between us and i wish is knew if your

intentions were meant to be taken in a jokingly matter. and you say lots of things about wishing someone loved me this much, well that

could've been me but it's whatever lol. i literally had dreams about you, still do.and i'm sure we would've had so much fun even if we kept us

a secret. wouldn't have mattered to me. i literally feel so stupid so i'm trying to keep this as short as possible, plus this isn't the first letter i've written

to you. but with the other going into sprecifics, memories of us, and stories of my thoughts, you won't even get

a chance to read it. i guess i'll never get my kiss. nut if you really wanted someone who would love you endlessly with no regrets , that 

could've easily become me.now i've promised myself tonight is the last time i cry over the thought and memories of us,

and i'm definetly over it seeing as it looks like we have no chance anymore. now i can't lie when i say a small piece of my heart

will always be yours to some extent, but it sure sucks it never got to be more. i'll always hope you find someone who will value your trust 

like i did, and someone who speaks as highly of you as i did. i'm over it finally which is ridiculous considering we weren't even "real".

anyways as always much love,

me :)