Letter To My Brother

Dear Brother,

How can I squeeze so many emotions onto this small blank sheet,

And still, find a way make this inkless pen leak

How do I tell you that I fear for you every day

This world has gotten a little bit too cruel ‘in every kind of way

How do I tell you that the reason I risked being called a tag-a-long

Was because I wanted to make sure every time you left you came back home

How do I tell you that I picked little fights with you just for the fun of it

And that every time one of your friends came around I hated that shit

Because you would yell at me and push me to the side

Oh how I used to yell back a little louder in an attempt to crush your pride

How could I tell you that I wouldn’t be this way forever

And maybe the next time you pushed me away I wouldn’t attempt to befriend you, not ever

How do I admit how much of a brat I was back then

But how can you blame me when you were my first true friend

How do I tell you that I thought you had some of the worst relationships in the past

Ladies don’t feel offended, what I speak is the truth, if it wasn’t you both would’ve last

How do I tell you that your temper frightens me at times

And no, you don’t scare me, it’s just that temper makes you blind

And a rageful blind like that can land you in one of two places

Neither of which is pleasant and I dare not say it

How do I tell you that your approval meant the most to me

The first male figure in my life, even though you weren’t supposed to be

How do I tell you most of this when it’s not easy

How do I tell you the next part at the risk of sounding cheesy?

How do I tell you that my love for you is endless

That my prayers for you are relentless

Or how your recklessness has made me restless

And how my gratefulness towards you is tremendous

How do I explain why I would step in front of a bullet for you without a second thought

And the fact that I wouldn’t hesitate to fight by your side when you fought

How do I tell you that I feel we’re drifting further and further apart

Seems as though everything comes before me and it enrages my heart

How do I tell you that I’m not as strong as I seem

And most of the times I smile and do the most annoying things,

When my mental is unknitting itself seam by seam

Dear Brother…..

I have about a galaxy of words to say to you

Phrases to quote to you, but only can think of these things

Thank you for teaching me how to throw a football

And how to land a ball in the hoop

Teaching me how to write a rhyme

Teaching me how to read a book

Thank you for your undying support

That’s really what’s up

And finally, thank you for never giving up