A Letter to My Parents

I wonder what the day will be like
When I can finally be honest 
Mom
Dad 
I’m not straight 
But that doesn’t mean 
I only like girls 
I think boys are pretty too 
Mommy 
Daddy 
I’m so sorry to disappoint 
But I can’t believe in Jesus 
If I did 
I wouldn’t believe in hell 
If god loves me, why can't I see 
Momma 
Papa 
Sometimes I get really sad at night 
The sadness translates into a knife 
I won’t show you the cuts on my skin 
I really don’t want to make you cry
But if you talk to god soon 
Will you ask him a question for me 
Please ask him why 
Mother 
Father 
I haven’t eaten today 
I didn’t eat yesterday
I don’t know why 
It just hurts to feel ugly 
It hurts to be nothing 
Mum
Dad 
Don’t blame yourselves 
You did what you thought to be right 
I have nothing but love for you
I wish I could have been a better daughter 
I wish 
That I had a choice 
To not be me 
But would you prefer that 
Tell me who to be 
And love me 
No matter what 
Please, I’m begging you
Love me 
Love me 
Love me