A Letter to an Old Enemy

Dear, XXXX

You know who you are. 

There is nothing in this world you could ever do.

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Could make me forget

the days I cried,

the days I didn’t smile,

days when I didn’t care,

the days when I was on the ground screaming in pain

absolute pain, because we both know you never cared

and we both know you never will.

The days I want to forget most

are the days permanently etched in my brain

days that started because of you.

And I know in twenty years you might not know me

I could be a different person, and I hope I am.

In twenty years I might be able to step up and forgive you

But forgiving and forgetting are two different things.

And I want you to know

that those days are Over

they are Gone.

I have woken up from my daze,

and surrounded myself with good people.

All you will ever have is yourself, and maybe you think

that’s good enough.

I feel sorry for you.

The days that started with you

are ending with me

and so, I am going to go outside

lift my hands to the sky,

say Thank You God.

For letting me get through those days

and realize that Yes, I am going to get through them.

I am going to be okay.

And I am, happiness has found me.

You, you after all these years, are still searching for yourself.

Nothing You Do,

Can erase those days.

But there is something I can do.

So goodbye, I forgive you. 

                                                                                               -L.A.