Letter, Sorry

Is it wrong that i pushed you away?
is it bad you cried and i ignored you?
is it wrong that i said i would never miss you?


was it stupid of me to say goodbye?
am i the reason i make myself cry?

i just want to say sorry.
that's all i can say.
i've started new pills.
and it's making me change.

i was dumb for doing what i did.
one day i hope you will come to read this.
i'm sorry i said what i did.
i am ashamed of myself.


I hope one day...just one day you will see this.



i'm sorry that i hurt you like this.




i'm a bad friend even worse. 
i guess i deserve this...
but i won't take any steps back.
i learn to face it.
like i made you those past 5 years.


i hate that things ended this way but 
i had no other idea of what to say.

you're always leaving me speechless.
it gets hard to breathe. 
i hope you get better.
and once again......
i'm sorry.