Life

I was born, december 29 2003

born into two houses, loved by both

They started living together, In independence mo,

I had my first winters and christmas' there

But, we picked up our stuff and went to Overland park for a few,

Started kindergarten

became a big sister on June 26th 2009

something was off though…

Mom was gone for a little,

They say it's because grandma was sick back home

Mom came back after a month or two.

Had to go back to independence

The feeling there seemed different

Mom and Dad would yell more…

Dad worked late, mom worked early

Mom had to leave again when i was in 3rd grade.

She left before christmas and my birthday

She left before my 10th birthday

I remember not being able to hold back tears at the airport

I gave you a folder full of pictures

She wasn't back that summer,

I spent a lot of time at my aunts

Grandma watched us after school

My favorite cat died…

Never got a real goodbye

2nd christmas came, mom didn't…

11th birthday did too…

My birthday wish was for u to be home

She came back in february

Mom seemed off…

She wasn't as friendly or happy

Mom and Dad are fighting even more.

They wouldn't stop till i cried…

They only way it stopped is when i cried…

Or if dad slammed the door and went for a drive…

I sat by the window waiting for him to get home

5th grade:

Dad had a heart attack

He was 10 minutes away from dying

I remember when he got out of the hospital he surprised me at school.

One day we all sat in the living room..

Mom said that we aren't all going to all live together anymore

Moved right before sixth grade to blue springs.

New school, new house, new depression

Saw dad when he was off.

Didnt ever seem like enough

Mom found someone new

She became more strict.

I don't like him.

Made some friends…

Lost them fast than i made them.

They didn't wanna deal with someone sad i guess

7th was a blur

Met a great guy in 8th.

We were the "couple of the year"

We hung out all the time, never got tired of eachother

Dated till june… June 16th

Never gonna forget that date

It was our 8 month…

I get it though, we were both so busy.

If we lasted two more weeks we would have been sleeping under the stars together.

My depression hit an all time low..

Tried to kill myself summer after 8th grade…

Started taking walks.

Moved again back to overland park.

Thought i found someone new..

Thought i made friends!

Same story different school I guess…

Seems like im always grounded because of grades…

Mom asks why i dont hang out with friends or have any in general

I dont want them to meet you,

ANd i did have friends…

But the found out how truly sad i am

Depression hit harder…

Tried to do it again…

Now Im grounded for that and grades..

What's new though?

Not even half way through the year…