Life in my shoes

There is just so many things going on,

so many events that I can't get a grasp on.

This is my life, this is what i go through

And i want you to understand what it feels like to be in my shoes.

I go to school and I can barely express myself.

Sounds like being me is worse than being someone else.

Everything I do is entirely different,

But in order to be accepted, I have to change for the crowd's benefit.

I'm the main reason why they laugh

but not because of a joke, its because they heard of something of my past.

Mainly they laugh at the fact that my stepdad constantly beat my ass

And I spent the first 3 months of freshman year in a cast.

If you feel down, just look at me,

Then you will realize that you don't have it that bad really.

You see the marks on my arm that represent a messed up mind and depression

Combined to trusting and loving a former cheating girlfriend.

My life is a struggle, full of many difficulties

I almost believed that I was a father to a baby.

But it was I lie, because I realized in mind

that being prepared for 3 months isn't enough to open a newborn's eyes.

My life continues to go through another course

As my mom is going through a divorce.

Even though I set them up, which is something I regret

I prayed for rthe day that they finally split.

I just hope it doesn't affect my mom's happiness.

Since my grandmom died, alone time is what we want. We needed this.

As I grow up and mature, I'm starting to realize

that drama is something that I really despise.

So staying away from it is what I need

So I can live my life and start to succeed.

So whoever is reading this, I just want you to know

my life was a struggle that was hard to go through.

But stay true to yourself, and remember this:

the struggles in your life are something you need to exist