live or die

Sometimes i wake up wondering why im alive why im still here whether im meant to be on this earth when i look in the mirror i feel ugly i feel regret i feel like im never going to be better or do better i pray everyday things will work in my favor why do i want to live why do i want to be here the answer is yes without all my mistakes n the lessons ive learned it made me the woman i am today i live in a society where people drink to deal with life sex as a way to cope n turn around get played like a joke do i want to live or die im keepin it so real i tell the truth theres no reason to lie