Living in fear

All of a sudden I feel this pain in my chest Like someone is stabbing and sitting on me It is the beginning of yet another hospital stay The pain just will not go away I've had surgery and take 16 meds a day Everyone says I'm too young for this- I'm only 22 I've gone through more in my short life than most people ever do. Test after test and many procedures And still no answers No one knows why this is happening One of my doctors said my case was giving him a headache How does he think I feel Like a guinea pig that's how i feel Like one big experiment I never know when this disease will strike So I live in fear because I know it's going to happen again It's not a matter of if, it's a matter of when.