Living on Hope

  I wouldn't be alive today without some hope

Too many late nights have been survived due to hope

A hope for tomorrow

A hope for clearer days

Lately, it's been faltering

Lately, it's been coming in gushes and waves

I know how to swim but it becomes tiring too quickly

The days too short

And the nights too long

Not much can be done at night

Except stare at the wall

Walls that stare back at me and echo my intrusive thoughts

But that's when I turn over and hope for a better morning

Hope for better days

Hope has gotten me through cold, winter and summer nights

Listening to harsh winds and harsher thoughts

Hope has gotten me through quiet school days

Clouded by bad ideas and hazy motor functions

Hope has gotten me thus far and without it
I wouldn't be here

I wouldn't be still hoping for calm seas

Hoping for better tomorrows

Without hope, I would be dead