Living Through my Days

Masking my depression with happiness

Just to show everybody that I’m no less

And I just want to fit in with the rest

Everyday I wake up hoping to feel purpose

Just to feel that pit of emptiness 

And I feel I do want to do something different

But always end up with the same opponent

The one I that I know just won’t quit 

Kicking me down 

Eating my time 

When I lay down I feel like I’m going to drown

In the path that life has given to me

I just want to live a life that sets me free

People telling me what I can and can’t do 

Knowing everything that they say ends up true

If only I could stack up against their misconceptions 

And show everybody that I am only human

And I do know that I joke a lot

It’s just the way I use to block out

All those feelings that are inside of me 

Those feelings that seem to want to control me

Never showing my true colors for those to see

What’s truly going on inside of me

I tell myself it’s time to put on my strait face

But always fall back into the same place

The safe place between my hopes and fears

Hoping that everyday ends up clear

Of the darkness, of that fear

That has been buried deep inside my years

Patiently waiting for its opportunity   

to kick through my wall of immunity, 

Leaving me with just enough will

To go on, and love life still