Living War

I've always felt insecure about this

But it's a part of who I am.

It's bot necessarily a good part,

But a part of me with importance.

I am anorexic -

I have been for almost three years.

I didn't like the way I looked

And I wanted to change

I starved myself for over a year.

I lost weight,

But I also lost my pride

And I felt worse in the end

I stopped starving

 And started eating healthier.

I won that battle,

But the war still rages on

I feel insecure about it

But only because I don't feel like I can tell anyone.

When I tell people they feel like their obligation to help me,

But little do they know that I'm the only one who can help

I hate when people think anorexia is due to a lack of self confidence.

I'm very confident

And I know that I'm a beautiful person -

I'm just not satisfied

I don't know if I'll ever be satisfied with the way I look,

Or If anorexia will be my life-long disease.

All I know is that I have hope

That one day I won't be a living war