Locked In A Cage

May, 6, 1998

I was born, wild and free

May, 6, 1999

My very first year, I was feelin’ fine

May, 6, 2000

I could walk, I could talk, I could let it show

May, 6, 2001

Three and playing

May, 6, 2002
Four and starting school, I made something called a friend, we have so much fun!

May, 6, 2003

Five and proud

May, 6, 2004

Six and loud

May, 6, 2005

Seven and quiet

May, 6, 2006

Eight almost silent

May, 6, 2007
Sad and sorry, We moved yet again. My first best friend, I’ll never see her again
 

May, 6, 2008

Ten and happy, I was destined for greatness. I would be a pokemon master.

May, 6, 2009

Scared, that’s all I knew. My parents said divorce, they don’t mean it right? They wouldn’t do this to us.

May, 6, 2010

They went through with it. What can I do? How do I know they both love me back too?

May, 6, 2011

I feel so lost. I want my mommy and daddy right here. But only one at a time is ever even near.

May, 6, 2012
The world didn’t end, but I wish it had. My life feels so empty without my dad. He’s still alive, but that’s all I know. He says he loves but it’s all a show.

I am alone, no one is there. There’s no one to whom my feelings can share.

I see the bars, inside my mind, they’re cold and they’re gray, They make up my cell.

Welcome to a room you don’t leave at the bell.

Why did this happen?

I’m in despair

I just want someone to show me they care.

I fake a smile

So no one will know

No emotions

No feelings
Don’t let them show
May, 6 2013

I’m in high school, it’s not so bad, but when I get home

I’m back in my cage

I want to be a kid again

Even at my age

So much heartbreak

So many tears

I didn’t think this much was possible in so few years

I thought I’d be thirty before this

But I guess I was wrong
I’ll never find the one place I truly belong

No one can see me

And I doubt they would care

I will get to see the world out there

This a promise

My guarantee

I won’t let my future get away from me

I will get out

I will break free

For all of the world to see

I won’t let this continue to happen to me
This ends at some point just wait and see

May, 6, 2014

I’m not there yet

But soon will be

One day I will be wild and free

But for now

I’m still stuck here

Just like for the past four years

What did I do?

Is it the end of my sentence?

Do I get a phone call?

I feel so much rage

Outside I’m a girl
But inside I’m a girl, Who’s locked in a cage.