Loneliness

When I feel ignored by others 

I usually pretend that I'm fine. 

But when I give up the act 

The saddest clouds linger my mind. 

My emotions want to haunt me, 

Something that I can't pry. 

No doubt that it will go away 

Even when I don't want to cry.  

Why can't pain just turn to pleasure? 

At least so that I can stay happy.  

Always keep smiling everyday 

So that I'm not so sappy. 

Laughing at a joke is a bright light 

Crying about something is a dark hole 

I know I'm an emotional wreck 

I know I'm not always under control. 

Rather be held than have nobody 

So I know that someone cares. 

When I am told to stop crying

Never seems to be fair. 

My heart is still going strong, 

Full of life and gold. 

Don't worry about the little things 

Cause that's what I'm told. 

My eyes dried up once more, 

Take it with a grain of salt. 

If I need to cry again 

That's no one's fault. 

Loneliness is inevitable and strange, 

Could never understand why. 

I didn't ask to feel this way, 

Ask me if I lied.