LONELINESS DEEP WITHIN

Loneliness Deep Within / Dark Angel

Loneliness becomes me, 
My poor heart cannot take no more 
Heartache overtakes me, 
I can't sleep or even eat, 
All I think about is you faraway and my life feels 
So gray, empty without you. 
Words are words and calls are calls, 
But true love is holding, loving, touching and given your all. 
I'm drowning in this pain with no ransom for my shame. 
I hold on to every word you have to say to me, 
Every night and every day how much you love me. 
But this love is on line, on a phone in a photo on the internet 
All the way in ''Paris '' a place I have not seen yet! 
Your not easily forgotten but nevertheless left behind in my mind at times, 
Time can, t repair my fragile mind and my heart don't you see what this 
Is doing to me? 
Their's no evidence of my murder of what is going on inside my heart, 
Just soulless glassy eyes from a long nights of goodbyes, 
His fingerprints can't be traced but his branding on my heart can't be erased. 
His love has me in bondage, 
I know he is older then me and old enough to be my father, 
But I loved him enough to hang on to something that has not happen yet! 
He's not here, but I still feel his touch and his words of love touching me 
In my heart all over, But then the pain of him not being with me cuts me 
Deep within my skin, Deep with in my heart. 
Cutting slowly night and day, 
His eyes aren't here but I still feel his lust, 
I lie awake with him on my mind, I cry out to God to forgive me another time. 
I can't be fixed I'm stuck in time of a love I met on line. 


Poetic Lilly J. Emery (c)