Long Lost "I Am"

I am strange and ever-changing,

 I wonder if this is how it always was,

I hear the clock ticking my life away,

I see the seasons change with my lost friends,

I want to fly away from this cruelty on wings of forbidden hope,

I am strange and ever-changing,

I pretend to be an angel; but I know I can’t be,

I feel the snowy breeze of loneliness,

I touch the fragile strings of life; they crumble and fall,

I worry my diary won’t show my cherished memories,

I cry when they fade into merely heartache,

I am strange and ever-changing,

I understand that light cannot shine without the dark,

I say that happiness comes at a hefty price,

I dream of a world where these rules do not coexist,

 I try to find a way to my imaginary wish,

I hope for bliss in this fair lullaby,

I am strange and ever-changing.