A look in the eye

I see you running towards that ball in the fields. I hear your laugh when you fall in that pile of leaves. I think of that day when you won’t need me to fight your battles. I ponder the memories of past, present, and future that we will make together. I dream of the dreams I will see you accomplish in your reality. I dread the pains of the ugly world I won’t be able to keep you from. I hope for you a life different than my own, without the failures, faults, and fears. I wish for time to pause, to prolong the joys of your own love, laughter, and joy. I anticipate your energy, creativity, and curiosity.. like someone else I know. I hesitate at the knowledge of your mistakes, wrong choices, and unwanted pains. I stand aside when you no longer want to listen, then turn back after it’s done. I linger with arms wide open, for comfort despite brought on stupidity. I smile when I think of the person you will become. I stare in pride when I visualize the change you will stir in your own reality. I cringe when you scrape your knee going after that dog you know you can’t take home. I walk towards you with pride of the achievements you went after with all your heart. I pray for the day you take all the gifts a one, true God has given you and dive in. I rest knowing that my life wasn’t in vain, but for a greater purpose. I found my life in two moments: When God found me, and gave me life of the utmost abundance… And when I looked my child in the eye.