Looking into the Future

Dear 30 year old me, 

Life was easy when I was younger

I had my parents, a house and four brothers

I had a sister and I got a niece

I even had 3 tiny dogs with me

Being a teenager is fun 

I had friends and had much fun

Once the real life problems started to appear

My view on life changed for good

I've cried and I've yelled like everyone else 

But i've gone through so much pain it hurts to say

Now I should be old enough 

To understand why this all happened

I've lost my two grandpas and my lovely brother 

Now that I'm older who else?

To my 30 year old body... Sarah how have you come this far?

It's been so hard just these 17 years

so take this time to thank god and yourself for coming this far 

Goodluck and have the best time of your life 

Sincerely, you're old friend... well the 17 year old you.