Loosen up

a little get together is what they said. they never told me that how i would feel for the rest of the night. just four friends

wait no four more guys show up 

cross that out two older guys knock on the door

i take three shots 

i think im going to throw up

alcohol will make you loose they tell me, loosen up, be fun, try this, dance with me. 

where's the bathroon he asks me with a beg to take him there with a slap on the ass 

scared

no, come, stop, loosen up

but what if i dont want to "loosen up" 

a crop top and tights walking home for twenty minutes

two o'clock 

sneak in the window put more clothes on to feel safe

nightmares of the junior just in the dreams i couldnt scream

one of the girls just couldnt say no 

that she didnt mind 

tell someone. no. tell someone. im underage.

and im still scared for the girl who "loosened up"