losing control

It’s getting to be too much

I don’t know if i can control it

Control it for much longer

I am beginning to feel like i am walking

Through the never ending valley of shadows

And death

I feel dead

I can’t  escape from it

Even in sleep

It feels like it is trying to drag me

Drag me from reality

I  can feel it coming closer

Closer than ever before

Voices

That’s all i can hear whispering in my ear

Telling me that i am nothing

That i am worthless

That i am an abomination

That i am a freak

An outcast

A nobody

That no-one

Would

Notice

If

You

Just

Died

Or

If

You just disappeared

And i,

I am starting to believe them.

They buried the seed of doubt into my mind,

My mind of  pandemonium.