Losing love

Please don't doubt it I do love you For me love is not an emotion, it's a choice Although i can't have you and you can't have me I never want you to leave My heart aches gazing at your unclear face in this thick fog of confusion Yet it simultaneously rejoices at the opportunity to have ever seen you at all I think you're beautiful Every scar, every fear and insecurity But you'll never know it Underneath all these emotions is an ongoing war I want you to hold me but what if you let me fall? What if you don't feel this way at all? What if at the end you choose to leave? Its painful to have to choose between love and duty When duty becomes identity, love is a necessity Like Romeo to Juliet You are so close yet so far Sometimes my heart scolds me She loudly screams at me Saying i'm making a mistake She reminds me that if i don't let you have me You'll be someone else's gain I prepare my heart to deal with the pain Of being just another memory of your past Like a precious gift left to ruin and rust The raging war inside my heart Will end at last -Precious Patience