"lost"

i lost someone
that had a 
beautiful soul.
full of energy,
and smiles, 
her personality
was gold.
she didnt know
what she wanted 
to be in the world-
and that made her 
less happy.
started over thinking
my stupidity
having these 
demons come 
in and attack me, see.
they can smell 
the fear and 
depression in 
your eyes.
like they're reaching
out to me.
but only to pull
me down,
not to let me 
fly.
they want to
watch me 
die.
dont want me 
to strive,
but instead 
want guilt to
be eating my 
insides.
they stay in
my head,
sit on the 
corners 
of my bed.
waiting for
me to finally 
everything i 
have.
waiting for
me to finally
let my go.