lost

my life has consisted of loss

death and betrayal

ive seen it all

i want a new path

a chance to restart

a fresh slate

clean off my scars and wounds

and start brand new

set backs tend to get to me

pulling me back down

im drowning in life

depression and anxiety swirl around me

weights on my legs dragging me further into the ocean

going from light to pitch black 

sometimes though i get a bubble

a spark of hope

a chance to breathe

just for it to be taken away from me

these days there are less and less bubbles

im choking on my thoughts

and suffocating on my actions

i dont make the best choices

but who really does?