Lost

No, I don't want you back, I've long since moved on but its time like these that I wonder what went wrong. The moments that shaped who we were and what we became are blurred and faded and jaded and tame; One day you loved me, a person with flare then the next, the one I loved was simply not there. People grow up and change with out a doubt but do they usually change their entire route? Its like the man I one knew had run far away and the stranger in his place-- he was terribly grey. Without the love of the man I once knew Each try for the spark invariably fell through We yelled and screamed and we stubbornly fought: for the love and the dreams apart we sought for the days and the nights of passion and lust but alas there was no metal beneath all the rust. So what then, are we to do with memories abound its hard now to keep my feet on the ground: I was so young, I don't think you comprehend exactly what you meant to me, even in the end. I said it plenty-- time and time again I was addicted to you-- my mortal sin. Your hands on my body, your eyes on mine pulling me in with every cheesy line. Your smell, your eyes, your sweet caress; the feelings I had were hard to suppress. I tried and I struggled to keep you away But I feel deeper into you with each passing day. The way I left was cold and abrupt but thoughts of you began to disrupt my life, my dreams and the life I wanted to lead; I felt like you were all I would need I was afraid and hurt from the truth I now know you stopped loving me a long time ago. We went through the motions of something routine failing into traps we had both foreseen. Why then, if we knew the cost would we keep going back to something we lost. We wanted it back, we wanted to win but only I wanted back what once had been. Maybe you loved me, what I could be but by loving an idea you never will see what life could have held for you and me So how to I get closure, how do I forget, when I cant even end this fabricated verse?