Lost Again

Lost Again

Lost again

trapped in a soul I cant call mine

This isn't me

I dont know who she is

I was weak for you

I lost who I was to become who you wanted me to be

Lost again 

trapped in a soul I cant call mine

trapped in love or trapped in lust

trapped in a sense of being wanted or wanting

Lost again

I let you change me

I let you control me

I let you use me

verbally abuse me 

and it was all so amusing 

for you...

Lost again

who is this girl taking over me

I let you take me and brake me

I let you make me forget my worth

or did I

did i still remeber or did i just feel less of who I was

Lost again

I let you have my mind

I let you take all I had

I gave you my pride and trust

I gave you my loyalty although you've earned none of it

Lost again

Where does she belong?

Fitting in everywhere adapting to survive

Losing sense of self and whats right

but maybe that's just it 

maybe what i always thought was right turned out to be wrong

Lost again

Because I thought I could help

I thought I could be the girl that helped you realize your worth

but how if I forgot my own

how could I fix one if I was broke

I thought I could be the girl that helped you trust

I thought I'd be the girl that could make you feel special

but who was going to make me feel special

or did that not matter anymore as long as i had you?

Lost again

I caught your disease

You gave me rabies

a form of feelings

feelings that can't  be naturally controlled

I thought it was fine

But then I learned that a dog with rabies are un-tamable by one

You're deep in your disease

you have infected me and left

and after all I gave 

all you did was give me rabies

Your evilness started with one touch that led to me heart

that led to my mind

and took over my common sense

naive 

Lost again

and it was you that infected me

you that broke me

you that hurt me

but no!

it was i that let you

and gave you everything

so it is I that hurt myself

so it is I who must fix whats's been broken...