The Lost Child

I am broken,

Broken from the past,

All the hurt and pain

Finally catching up with me,

Ripping me to shreds,

Testing me to see 

How much pain i can stand 

Before i crack again

Last time I was young,

Last time I had my childhood ripped away,

I was never able to experience what it was like, 

What it was like to be carefree, 

What its was like to be happy, 

They call me a lost child,

A person still in search, 

In search of what we missed out on,

Of the carefree life that we were never able to live,

I am a lost child, 

Lost inside my past,

Lost inside my heart ache, 

Lost inside of what could have been,

I am lost and I am scared, 

I am scared that I will never find my way,

Find my way back to reality,

I am lost inside depression,

Lost inside of hate, 

Hate that i have, 

Towards my past, 

Hatred towards myself, 

All this hate built up,

Is starting to scare me, 

I have become scared of myself, 

I am scared of what I will do, 

What I will do to myself, 

Being lost inside myself, 

I realized how much I have to lose,

How much I have already lost, 

I am not the same person that I was before, 

Before they broke me, 

Before they abandoned me,

I have lost myself.

I am standing in a dark forest,

Searching, 

Searching for human life, 

Searching for someone to help me, 

But all these trees have faces, 

I cannot tell anymore if a tree is really a tree or not, 

They are playing games with me, 

Making me walk around in circles,

I have been lost in these woods for what feels like forever, 

All of the faces on the tress laugh at me,

Laughing at the lost child, 

The child who is scared,

And vulnerable,

I am lost among the faces,

Will I ever find my way back?

Will I ever be the way I was before?

Or will I be lost forever?

Will I be a lost child forever?