Lost Connection

lost hope

lost view 

lost connection

like a gamer losing internet

I started stressin'

yeah I miss lil' brother

I remember how we grew up in a gutter

late nights crying together

and wishing we could see our mother

I remember how we used to fight 

and make chair tents and joke around with our flash lights

we did everything we can to have a little fun

but times changed when he didnt mature like everyone

my little bro stayed being little

he got bigger physically but struggle in terms of mental

I tried everything I could to maintain our connection

but we were split apart by the goverments selection

now I celebrate my birthday on the day you have yours

and hope that one day I could see you when I walk through the doors

of my own home

becuase every single year I celebrate with people and I know your alone

becuase your still stuck in the system 

and I know they're just using you to run thier own home

so every single year I call you and cry as soon as I hang up the phone

and I'm sorry for the loss in connection 

and the way you've been spun around in every direction

and I can't seem to comprehend your mental degression

but your always so happy, like a child

while I'm struggling with depression

and nobody can tell how you really feel

but keep that smile on your face lil' bro 

becuase the fairy tales will soon fade away

and life will become all to real

and I know your not ready to handle that pressure 

so as your big bro i'll always be your protector