Lost but found

Thinking back over all the years that passed, I am forced to reflect upon my sacrifices and those I've hurt As a result of my poor choices, I lost my kids, my life, my pride, most of all, my mind by doing alot of dirt I spent most of my life locked up in my inner soul that I forgot who I am and who I've become Being away has caused a lot of misery and pain for me I don't even remember how I got here nor do I remember what happened, but I do know who I want to be I'm a mother, a sister and a daughter to my father and mother But the hurt and pain I have suffered was because the lost from my sister and brother During my drug journey I was able to see who was for me and who was not Why wasn't I able to figure those guys out on the spot These have been some very painful times during the segments of my life But I never hallucinated even when I got stabbed by a knife Yet, when I think about it,nothing in life have come easy for me None the less I respected the game and not people have the heart nor the soul to the consequences that came along with the territory, you see And many have sold there soul but not me, I say I have a lot of sadness, hurt, and pain, but GOD seen everything, I know that he will repay I'm not a struggler, I'm a fighter who wants a life of recovery and hope Now I'm here learning me over again and people teaching me how to cope I thank GOD everyday Prayers,guidance and my ability to gain my trust over and also learning what to say