Lost Inside

At the age of eight my best friend left

He packed up his bags

Laced up his combat boots

And headed out into the battle field  

He couldn't have known

Couldn't have prevented 

That he was the reason

For my lost of innocence 

I only remembered my fear for dark

Waiting to hear the pounding on the door

And hear deep whispers 

The cry of agony would get the tears going 

In that nightmare my parents had lost their son

And i had lost my world

The fear, anger, sadness and

Loneliness 

Ate at me everyday and night

My head no longer in the clouds

I had landed into this thing called

Reality

After two years of being lost in my mind

And not being able to deal with restless nights

I grabbed my sword

And turned on my light 

Flipped to a fresh peice of paper

And tore it to pieces

Twenty minutes was all it took

To flip me world around

I could finally let all my feelings and thoughts out

I had filled the paper

With words