LOST IT

                                                                                            I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF!!

Pill, after pill after, pill.

Till I could hear my surrounds but not see them .

BLANK. I'm gone!

I didn’t even notice my actions

I just wanted to sleep and have the depression faded away

So I take one of my depression pills

I take another one…..

NOTHING

Another one…..

NOHTING

Then another one…….

Still nothing so I take the one for me to sleep

Thinking maybe I should just sleep

STILL NOTHING

I take another pill, then the sleep one then another pill.

I'm GONE!!!....

Now I'm woke, it’s the middle of the night

No ones home

Just the children that are sleep and I

I feel like Shit..

I'm crying, high, shaky, hungry, empty, out of it really

I try to stand. Dizzy fainted feeling really

I can not walk straight

I struggle to look

To look, for her, all I want is her

She's not here thou

I could of called but I don’t want to worry u

Even thou I'm Worried, I'm Scared.

I can barely see

….

I Guess You Can Say I Lost It