lost love

I feel like a waste of space
I feel like i'm so easy to replace
I mess up everything
Can't keep a single soul happy no matter what i bring
I have no value in anyones life
I just want to toss the knife
I don't want to be here anymore
I just want to learn to soar 
I don't want to sepnd another moment wishing I didn't have to breath
I don't want another moment to grieve
I just want to leave 
I don't want to wear my feelings on my sleeve
I wanna disapear 
Never have to live in fear
Never wake up just to impress others
I don't want to be another
I want to be gone
I don't want a spawn
So I say these words with all my heart
I'm sorry but I can't be what anyone wants me to be...I'm torn apart
I can't be your light in the darkness
Because my faith and hope ran out and I'm lifeless
I can't make your life better all I can do it make it worse 
I am a disease, a curse
I am not a role model for the young, nor for the old 
I'm not bold or couragous..i'm cold
I don't care about anything anymore, not even myself
I gave up long ago and placed my story on the shelf