Lost Love

Needles stabbing my skin The freezing wind I needed to clear my mind And this is where it brought me To the place where you asked me “Will you be mine?” Yellowed fingernails Black lungs I breathe in poison To replace an empty love I swear i can feel you when I take a drag Pounding heart and dizzy head A replacement so similar A burning fire within Just to remind me that I’m alive Weakened bones And lonely skin It is you The pack of cigarettes They have the same effect My body gets sensations Heart is throbbing Knees are wobbling I inhale the poison To recreate what I once felt So similar physiologically But my lips are stuck in a sour taste permanently My heart may race I get a high I try to erase you from my mind Because my body feels how it did before But my heart knows better I’m not very clever However, there isn’t a way to trick myself into thinking you’re still here Because deep inside I know There is something missing The love has disappeared