Needles stabbing my skin

The freezing wind

I needed to clear my mind

And this is where it brought me

To the place where you asked me

“Will you be mine?”

Yellowed fingernails

Black lungs

I breathe in poison

To replace an empty love

I swear i can feel you when I take a drag

Pounding heart and dizzy head

A replacement so similar

A burning fire within

Just to remind me that I’m alive

Weakened bones

And lonely skin

It is you

The pack of cigarettes

They have the same effect

My body gets sensations

Heart is throbbing

Knees are wobbling

I inhale the poison

To recreate what I once felt

So similar physiologically

But my lips are stuck in a sour taste permanently

My heart may race

I get a high

I try to erase you from my mind

Because my body feels how it did before

But my heart knows better

I’m not very clever

However, there isn’t a way to trick myself into thinking you’re still here

Because deep inside I know

There is something missing

The love has disappeared