Lost In The Snow

I want someone to hold me.

Embrace me tightly.

I want to feel safe and loved in their arms.

I want someone to hold me and never let go.

Someone to let me cry as long and as much as I need.

Someone to remind me of my worth…

Because slowly I’m loosing sight.

The shattered city had its foundations back briefly.

But it was bulldozed by my old friend.

The depression is engulfing me.

Taking away all the hard work.

Extinguishing all light and hope.

Tears roll down my cheeks.

I watched the snowfall, it was peaceful and serene…

until it wasn’t.

It reminded me of my childhood, my innocence that was stripped from me far too early.

The purity snow holds can never be found within me.

I am a dark shadow, my lungs black, my soul black. 

The snow keeps falling,

but it buries me instead of cleansing me.

                                          3:00 am 5/1/24 ~Alz