Lost Without You

I feel so broken, I feel so weak.... with you gone I can barely speak

I had so much to say but you just walked away and the pain only gets worse because I need you more each day.

The longer you're gone, the stronger the pain becomes and the darker it gets without you.

No words can express how much I need you, so I can tell you how desperate I am to see you

I'm broken without you and I miss you picking up the pieces, I miss you putting me in place and wiping the tears from my face.

The pain washes over me and I don't know what to do, the pain is unbearable that I can barely speak or breathe.

I try to talk but I don't know how to do that without a stream of tears rushing from my eyes.

I never thought that you understood the pain that I felt inside, you looked at me with no remorse and I thought your feelings for me had gone.

How could I be so stupid because my thoughts were wrong?

my body feels weak with you gone, even though I pretend to be strong. I give anything to have you in my arms again but I messed up too much to be forgiven.

life is a course that I could never stay on, that my heart always strays from and everyone is so easily walking away from. I try to be brave but I'm nothing without you. you were my stability and now I'm lost without you.

I could tell you anything, you opened up my heart and with you gone I'm  falling apart. I need you now more than ever, we were supposed to be together forever but I guess no one can promise forever with me.

Forever by your side, was the only place I wanted to be and the only place I wanted to see.

Love was a luxury that I didn't have until I found you and now that you're gone I'm lost without you. you were all I had and now your gone. I know that what I did was wrong and I need you to come back. you were the only good part of my life and that's a fact, you provided everything I needed in my life and more. My heart is a mystery that you were willing to explore, you shouldn't feel guilty for wanting more.

Now I feel empty, broken, like a shell of a man

without words or a voice to speak, silence by fear and rejection. Not use to love, someone being there for me, someone wanting me for me and not expecting anything in return, who knew that a person's heart was something that you earned. That lesson was learned and you went far for me but I was too blind to see because I'm not used to someone loving me. To be honest, I never experienced love, this is new to me and self-realization was hard for me to see.

I've been through so much and you have too, you have always been there when I cried or screamed or told you how much that I needed you.

I just need you to understand,

I'm lost without you