To Love

Oh dear love,

I've never quite expressed you to the people I care for because of embarrassment or shame,

But when it comes to the lack of love I give myself there's no one to blame so I ask you to please... help me heal the pain to make this valuable change,

I write to you so that I can have more happiness in my life and keep the little that remains because again I'm begging you,

I don't want things to stay the same,

As an adolescent in this life time I desire my life to be all about balance with you as my secret component,

I want you to fill my life with unique purpose and memorable moments,

I want my hardships to become changing companions instead of my evil opponents,

And I'm so sure that I'll get to where I wanna be with you as my source of enjoyment,

You know writing to you almost feels like I'm writing to myself,

And maybe that's a good thing especially when you have nobody else,

For me writing to you makes me feel like I have every right to excel,

I'm talking about this wonderful life you've upheld even when I wasn't well,

I used to think that you only existed among a selected handful of lives,

But looking back that was all just a lie,

I now see that you live through me and every other person I see,

You are a true gift just like the moon is to the sea,

And I don't think I could ever imagine life without you cause' you are my key,

You have taught me to care for myself even there is nobody else,

And I just want to say thank you for allowing me to finally love myself.