On love again

The day we started seeing each other I took you in as "by default" state As if there was no choose for me to make The uncomfort I kept on feeling was registered as insignificant Yet i suffered much from loosing myself. The silence fantasy and dreams We're very soon crushed down And we kept having conflicts as to where s it Up or down The comfort kept on growing slowly yet i still didn't feel in love And all I can remember goodly is that i ran from home I m here uncertain as to what shall I choose or not Between a silence or a swift goodnight I keep on creating buffers between me and you So I could challenge my own perception of you as a future boo I can't pretend I'm stupid I need to give me time But since I am with you babe my inner had to lock There's subjects i dint talk with you Yet when I do bring up i meet with your resistance I might be uncertain, lost and dumb I might plan badly or have a hazy determination I might look poorly equiped for future work or smt Yet in my silence i feel like without you I'd reach a place where my mind would find a balance. In which I'd understand what's Been so far. Cus fight now babe I'm oblivious of what our relationship is in deed. Pls understand me and break your embrace free. Im confused and irritated can't you really see that babe? Pls offer me the space to unwind and find myself again.