Love and Doubt

(poems go here)Lavinia Le’Anne Jones…….I can truly say that I love you. From your flawless smile to your beautiful lips, and your lovely skin down to your sexy hips. My love for you is like that for no other; if I had one wish it would entail being your lover. But it’s indistinct how you feel about me, because we both know what I did with G. The memory of that solemn day still haunts the air even though I wish it would go away. I can feel it still hurts you and I hate the thought, because I truly broke the heart I once sought. Yet and still I feel that you love me as well, but your reluctance is understood, as I put did put you through hell. But I say to you: There is no girl I would rather be with on this day or any, so I hope you can fall in love with me again and our days can be many. Well spent with one another as we stand tall, in an effort to show that love conquers all. It conquers hate, deceit, sadness and despair. It is the core reason of why I want to be there. There by your side, there in your arms, there in spirit, and knowing I would never do you harm. This may sound contradictory because I have already done that, but even you said I deserve a second chance…….so where is it at? And I know, I know there are other guys out there who HAVEN’T broken your heart the way I have; I know this to be true……But when it really comes down to it, who knows you like I do? I would guess not many, because when were together, I tried my best to learn you as if we’d be forever. I know all of this is truly hard to take in, but my main aim is to be able to win. Win your heart again and love you once more, so I truly hope you will soon walk through that door. The door of opportunity which leads to my heart, I’m sure if you follow yours, not even death can do us part. There are many things that will influence your thoughts, actions, and drive. Although I don’t have you, I must keep hope alive. I had a notion that I stopped loving you and I figured we were just history. But when I saw you the other night, it again became a mystery. I just concealed my feelings behind a heavy hear because I felt we couldn’t be…..but anything worth having is worth fighting for…..and I want YOU and ME. I know deep down you truly love me too, but when it comes down to making a decision, what are you going to do? Will you brush me off and not let go of the past or will you give me a chance to make this last? I want you and need you and much much more; but when it comes down to it, I don’t know what fate has in store. What I do know is this……I love, love, love you deep down to my core and although it seems as if my cup runneth over, I could love you ten times more. When it’s all said and done I will say I did my best, because eve if I don’t get you back, I can sleep easy I rest. But I feel that our future together is uncertain as I don’t know what it holds. I jus want you to love, to cherish, to kiss, and to grow old; with you I am the perfect person, as you bring out the best in me. I just pray to God above that you still want us to be.