Love and Let Go

How do I let go? It’s hard To love myself when I fall so far Can I love myself when others can’t forgive me? Give me eyes to see Clearly He said it was too much for him to handle Said that I had broken the vow And the heart I gave to him, lay on the floor again It bleeds Even now Lord, tell me why I tried so hard to show him How much I loved him, but it still wasn’t enough How can I love myself completely When he couldn’t even stay with me? Not even for love I thought you told me love was never ending That as long as we both tried, it’d be okay But the doubts consumed my mind And then he left me far behind I drove him away And even after that I tried to reach him My love for him was stronger than my fear But he said it was too late No, he didn’t want to wait For me Although I know I will not choose another Although I am grateful for what we had It hurts that he is done No second chances, I get none Not even one Lord, tell me why he told me that he loved me Yet when I caused him pain, he wanted to move on He said he’d always try, and I told him, “So will I” And now he’s gone Tell me why After all these years, why can’t he trust me? Can’t he see my mind is different from my heart? Although I struggle with myself I loved just him and no one else Now we’re torn apart He says he wants us to try others in the future As if I can stand the thought of someone else He may meet a girl and then Fall in love over again But not myself God, you know I’m fine with being single You know that You’re the only one I need But I just don’t understand this God, why would you have planned this? Show me please I meant it when I promised him forever I meant it when I told him I was his And though to him I broke the promise I cannot help but be honest I am his This is the type of love I learned from Jesus Who gave us the free will to stay or go He suffered for our sake Gave us the choice whether or not to take His love And now I know I love him unconditionally And now I know I want him to be happy So I have to let him go If he moves on, it must be so I set him free And regardless of whether he forgives me I have decided to forgive myself It was not my fault, for I Had thoughts too crazy to defy Until now I realize now that I have tried my hardest To overcome my inner demon’s cry That I’m worthless to the bone That I am meant to be alone That I should die And now I can say I fully love myself And now I can say I fully trust my heart It was a shame you had to leave When the very best of me Was about to start Perhaps you will forget me in the future Perhaps you’ll maybe want to try again But regardless of your choice I have found my inner voice Amen