love // the driving force
love,
is a driving force,
like the gasoline that fuels the mileage of a vehicle,
or a human vessel.
love,
is a driving force,
the gasoline that can fuel a raging fire,
of intimacy,
or abuse.
i define love,
in so many ways.
i love my,
friends,
family,
partners,
pets,
but do i love myself?
i doubt i have ever loved myself as much as i love others,
and i cant know the true definition until then.
until then,
love will not be an efficient fuel source,
or an enhancement to a current relationship:
good or bad.
until then,
love will be complacent.
i will fall into the trap:
the vicious cycle,
the catch 22,
i will hit rock bottom,
over,
and
over.
i wont know how to dig myself out,
because i love you,
too much to leave.
because i love you,
too much to be my own independent person.
because i love you,
too much to speak up; to communicate.
because i love you so much that i am blinded,
blinded from your mistakes
(my failures)
and the plagues of the world.
because i love you so much that i let you build me up,
with a strong and solid foundation that flourished into a beautiful structure.
that love led to my destruction,
my walls came crumbling down:
and i let them,
because i love you.