LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP

I swear I must love to hate myself 

I swear I don’t mean to do it

But self-sabotage is my worse nightmare

It plagues me at the worse of times - when I finally let my guard down 

I swear I’m a ghost in my own body

I swear that I’m not like that - I don’t mean the things I say

But I wish I could show you how it feels 

To look back, bewildered by your own mind

I wish I could say that I had a reason

The problem is - I didn’t 

I wish I could say what I was thinking

The problem is - I wasn’t

My id came out to play that day

And kept me hidden far, far away

Trapped by me and my self

I wish I was the only one controlling my actions today

That me, myself, and I were on the same page for a change