Love hurt & resentment

Alone again i miss my best friend. Hurt her again i wish it would end. Seems better this way I only pretend. I wish theres a way to go back to the day , all the pain i have caused could just go away. Trust and beleave it will all be ok. Its hard with out her for one single day. Angry again i just can not win. I crave so much attention i ruin it again. What will i do when this reaches the end. Inside my head shes the best thing about me. Sadly but true shes better with out me.