Love hurts

Mixed emotions, yet another failed relationship.
Keen to love but been through too many failures.
Why is it that every time it's impossible to get past this, this deep shit?
Like I always tear myself up in small bits because love is just an everlasting prison for me.
I don't think I will ever be set free because I always end up drowning my pain with greed.
Help me, please, how could I ever feel a sense of peace?
Like every time I try to contact you, I'll just be left on read.
I'm trying too much but the truth is I need you here.
I can change for you, I can make things better and never let you down.

Ouch, I have lost myself again... I just wanted to understand you.