Love Isn't Pain

She never listened to a word I said. 

She always dragged me down.

And when I had enough and told her to stop, 

She continued anyway. 

I knew she loved me

She was my mother after all

So I believed that love was pain.

It's all I ever knew.  

I received so much "love" from her all the time

But the pain caused by her would eventually diminish.

So I took matters into my own hands and took blades to my arms until my wrist bled 

and the cuts were so numbing I thought I was dead. 

Dissatisfied, I looked for more love 

So I fell in "love" with the wrong people 

who hurt me the most 

because this is love right?..this is love. 

This is what I deserve. 

I do not deserve anything more.

and I didn't realize until many years later 

that this isn't love 

because when I met you 

I knew for sure, 

that this wasn't even close. 

Because I love you, and you love me, 

you helped me realize that love isn't pain

but the thing that makes the pain go away 

And it's support and understanding 

it's trust and encouragement 

it's having compassion

it's like wearing your heart on your sleeve and knowing it'll be okay 

like home, 

it engulfs you and protects you and makes you feel safe.   

Love isn't pain.

It's everything that makes your heart jump with glee 

and I promise to give you what you need

whenever you feel down, ill be there for you 

and show you love through every action I do 

and because I love you, I mean every word. 

We're partners for life and in sickness and in health, i'm all yours.