Love Me Not

Watching watching me i know you are there lord feeling feeling what you are pulling me toward It seems since iv strayed on this path of my own youv left me to sit between rock and stone my once always ups and beauty it seems has gone dull gone away no longer it gleams so love me not lord cuz it hurts my dreams of furtune and fame that i never will claim the gifts that youv given seem no longer of use leading me nowhere but to hurt and abuse this smile so fake my hands how they shake my soul crying for you lord i know not what to do so here im done im down on my knees what do i do tell me please every way i turn i see dark ahead no longer able to see tears i shed i cant tell anymore who im trying to find all i know is your love is one of a kind but love me not lord cuz it hurts me so so much more then this world ever could know so you said if i called if ever youd answer well help me now lord its spreading like cancer i refused to be infected children of god arent neglected i was showing my "pride" i was dieing inside to be the happy beautiful girl i used to be who id look in the mirror smile and see it hurts so much knowing that grace can still be found in your embrace yet im too ashamed to speak in your presence im weak so love me not cuz it hurts