Love me, Or not

Love me? Or not. I pick a red rose Red signifies love so I turn my head up And pray to the lord up above Give me a sign and tell me guide me Is it a yes or a no My fingers get to plucking My mouth says the words He loves me he loves me not He loves me because he sent me reels when I was sleep and he told his mother about me I'm also a fool for love and what I wouldn’t do to feel that love specifically from you so He loves me not when someone else walks by your eyes trail off losing sight of me and when you do look at me it’s no longer my eyes you look at My God I pray to telling him to remove evil from my life and when it was, I begged for it back I said God please if he's not good for me remove him He loves me my God my Lord and my savior He loves me not The message God tells me is he lusts me he loves me not The last petal there He loves me not That red dried up petal waiting to rejoin what once was beautiful A beautiful rose Picked apart Why would such a beautiful thing need to be picked apart to then finally see the ever-lying truth As I wished there was just one more petal to get an answer I know isn't real I searched for love and found myself in confusion I look there at the stem slowly fading I once was the rose And you wanted to see how many petals I had left Till I became bare I will plant what is left in better soil because I love me