She was my priority 

My one and only 

Months and years would go by 

But not a single love would fly

I was blinded by fake love

Distracted by all the hidden lusts

Everything I ever wanted in a relationship 

Was not what Love itself would ship

This lustful relationship went on for three years

Altering break-ups and make-ups only brought us tears

With a hopeful future in mind

I am glad that this was all a lie

For every expression of myself

She did not keep to herself 

With numerous attacks on who I am

I started to change who I am

Whatever she did not like in me

I vanished those parts of me

For the things she liked in me

Only little remained as to the real me

She was my storm

My horrible hurricane 

I struggled to keep warm

To keep myself from baring shame

But after such natural disasters 

A new rainbow emerges

She came right behind the storm

With her relieving light coming ashore

She was like a distant star that finally sprung out

She is beautiful without a doubt 

But I cannot be with her

For something else has already taken her

Yet, she showed me what Love should be

To be happy with or without me

She did not have to give me lust

Only love was present to us

Just being with her was enough

With our thoughts and feelings fighting rough

We did not know what to do with each other

We only knew our strong bond together

She and I wanted to keep our hugs and comforts

For maybe one day we will know what comes forth

She accepted me

I accepted her

But what will happen to me?

I will always care for her no matter

I will carry her on my back forever

To keep her feet clean from the grounds of fever

She is more than my bestfriend

But less as to my girlfriend

Our relationship may not be what others want to see

But our relationship together is enough for me

Our friendship is what makes us happy

Our companionship keeps us ready

Why do I not cry knowing that you're with somebody else?

Because I am gracious for you to be happy for yourself

Why do I stay knowing that you may not even be with me at all

Because I love you on call